The lunch monster

Forgive me Lap Band, for I have sinned. (Please don't be offended if you are Catholic)

It has been..well, this is my first real confession--which I am sure will be followed by many more to come. Oh yeah, this is just the beginning!

I have sinned against you, Lap Band. I am weak in the face of temptation.  I have partaken of chips and salsa at Chili's three times in less than one week.  I had you on Wednesday, Friday, and again today. And even though I feel guilt, you felt OH SO GOOD at the time, that I threw caution to the wind and partook of you fully.   I'm not even going to quantify what happened with the Hershey Kisses.

I am weak, Lap Band. I know that I am. But I humble myself before you now, asking you to put me on the right path, to say NO to the evils of temptation that are found in the form of crispy warm salty tortilla chips served with salsa. And chocolate. And warm crusty baguettes with real butter. and..well, this list could go on for a while...

Help me, Lap Band, to rise above the humble temptations of lunch, and to make you work for me as you have for millions of others.  I choose you, Lap Band, to guide me on this journey to health. I just need to stop being weak and grow a set of ...well, you know whats....and stop going out to lunch with coworkers so much--but it's the weather. Stupid rain! Yeah--let's go with that..because when it rains, I can't walk at lunch and get easily suckered into going out.

Please remind me that only I can control what goes into my mouth, and that it is not your job to stop me from eating bad food--only from eating too MUCH of that bad food--or even just influencing me to make healthier choices. Unfortunately, I get confused because the 'bad' food tastes so 'good', it's only understandable that it would cause me trouble.

Please forgive me, Lap Band, and allow us to move on from this indiscretion. I need you to guide me down the path to weight loss and good health. I am in this with you, Lap Band--if you are in it with me.  Well, technically, you have no choice because you are inside me and have to go with me no matter what..but you know what I'm sayin'.

In the name of the surgeon, the dietician, and the support group meeting...Amen.

Good morning...restriction

Dear Cream of Wheat,

I know it's 9am, and we have a standing date at this time, every Monday through Friday. You are my mid-morning snack, and I love that you are always there for me. 

Ever since I started my pre-op diet, you have been my friend. We have something special, Cream of Wheat. I forgot how much I loved you, until you came back into my life.  My mom loved you, too, and she ate you every single morning.  At first I was afraid, thinking that you would bring back too many memories for me, but we've been good.  You've been warm and filling, and a real boost to helping me keep my calories on track during the work week.

But today, I'm not feeling you. It's not you, it's me.  See, it's raining out--and will be raining for some time according to the weather guy, and as I'm learning--when it rains, I get restriction. So when I drank my protien shake this morning with the promise of Cream of Wheat on the horizon--well, I did have every intention of eating you.

I see you looking at me from your styrofoam cup, all warm and ready to go down. And I feel bad that I brought you on deck, only to send you back to the dugout.

Please forgive me, Cream of Wheat. I will always love you...just not today.

Love,

Luka

And project number two

This is the second project I completed today.  The glass turtle was part of a secret Santa gift at work (because I love turtles). The rest came from my bead collection. Not to bad...just wish I owned/wore more brown!

Trying to stay busy

I am the QUEEN of boredom eating. I find even with my band that I struggle when I have free time alone. 

Unfortunately, the nature of the ELBs job means that he is usually working every weekend.

This presents a problem for me, because when left to my own devices, I will eat....alot. I know that I can't do it, but I end up doing it anyways. It has to be a combination of boredom and head hunger.

Once I found myself eating a Klondike bar, I decided that it was time to stay busy. So I pulled out my beading stuff, and made a wrap bracelet. My forte is earrings, but I make alot of necklaces and ID holders, too. And no two things I make are the same, so it is a great creative outlet.

This is todays project. And there are still hours to kill before the ELB comes home. So I'll probably make some more stuff.

Hope everyone is having an awesome Saturday!

Supplements

Does anyone else struggle with the chewable supplements? My surgeon requires one multivitamin and 2-3 calcium citrates per day. The calciums are the WORST because they are huge and taste gross.

I've never been a fan of chewable vitamins. Unlike most kids I didn't grow up eating Flintstones like candy. Even as an adult, I struggle with eating an occasional Tums for heartburn.

I don't like it when they get stuck in my teeth. Blech.

Only another month till I can stop chewable and go to regular supplements!

Dreams of cookies

Last Friday, on my walk home I stopped to get the ELB dinner. And I got myself something for myself, too. 

We eat at Potbelly alot (well me not any more) and they have cookies...really good cookies.  And I hadn't had a cookie in over two months.  And they make ice cream sandwiches with those cookies. Two big fresh cookies with a big scoop of vanilla ice cream. And I got one.

I ate half on Friday, and the rest on Saturday, and I enjoyed EVERY SINGLE BITE. And I don't regret it. But now I can't stop thinking about how awesome it was.

This is where willpower will need to step up and not walk down the street to get another one. Because my willpower would totally do that to me.

Just checking in

So it was a regular old Monday today.

Nothing awesome or not awesome happened.

Made healthy food choices.

I started my day with my Unjury and soy milk shake.

I did not fall victim to bagels and pastries at a professional conference this morning. Instead I ate the ham/swiss roll ups I brought from home.

I ate a good lunch of chickfila tortilla soup and six grilled nuggets.

I did a two mile walk with the ELB when I got home.

I made a healthy dinner (quinoa broccoli chicken casserole w reduced fat cheese) and only ate one serving. And it was GOOD! I could have very easily eaten all of it.

So that was a day in my part of the world. How was yours?