Sorry I've been out of the loop the past week. Last week ended on an emotional low. I was told Thursday right before I left work that I wasnt going to be offered the most recent internal position that I applied for. I was ok with that but my frustration at not ever being considered for the five jobs I've applied for took its toll...along with the emotions i was still riding last week. I told the HR girl I was done. I wasn't wasting any more time applying for internal positions bc this company doesn't appreciate the talent they have. I have a BS, an MBA, and a professional certification. Her suggestion was that i should consider looking at admin positions. Really? I'm supposed to take a job that I'm way over qualified for in order to work in my chosen field with a bunch of women who who have less education and experience...that's not going to happen. I told her that maybe when i lost another hundred pounds i would be good enough to work in their dept and i walked out. I'm done.
Its been four years. Four years of shoddy pay increases, of being bored, of being yelled at by employees. I am awesome at what i do, but if i had to do this for the rest if my life i would shoot myself. I am not happy....but i am loyal. Too loyal. I should have been gone last year, but i had a plan. Get my surgery, lose weight, reach my goal, get my skin removal surgery then start looking for a new job when my weight would not be a deterrent.
Now I'm starting the job search. If nothing else it should motivate me to exercise and stay on plan. This weekend i was off. Not super off but i really need to work on staying on plan on weekends.
I am going to lose this weight. I got two pairs of new tennis shoes for walking over the weekend so i can keep putting on the miles. And i am going to not let my weight keep me from applying for new jobs. There has to be a company out there that needs someone with my talent, skills, education, and experience. And I'm going to find it.
Wish me luck.
Good Luck! Honestly, the confidence you gain through the weight loss will shine through in your interviewing. I felt so confident during my interview two weeks ago. I knew I had the job before I even walked out of the building, that's how you will know you have changed your life. I used to get sooo nervous during interviews.
ReplyDeleteYou will find something good! Sending you all positive vibes for finding something you love, and a company who will value you!