I have continued restriction. What.the.Hell?
After my disasterous lunch experience yesterday (with chips and salsa galore!), I went home last night and had a healthy dinner ON A SMALL PLATE. Leftover rotisserie chicken and broccoli/cheddar quinoa as a side. And I was satisfied. About 4 hours later, I had 3/4 cup of SF pudding made with Silk and added a TBSP of powdered peanut butter (yum!).
This morning, I made my shake but was feeling kind of tight, so I didn't have it until after 8am. Around 10:30, I had two small slices of ham/swiss, and then at 12, I had my normal packed lunch of leftover chicken and quinoa (small portion). I am satisfied. I am not sitting here thinking about what else I can eat. I do not feel like I have an endless void needing to be filled inside me.
If this is what I'm supossed to feel like, GREAT! However, I haven't had my first fill--so when I DO get my first fill, will I be too tight? Normally, I don't have any restriction feeling at all, and I struggle to not eat every single thing in my line of sight. I'm wondering how much of this has to do with weather and allergies, and if I need to have my surgeon take that into consideration in two weeks when I get filled.
Maybe I'll have to be one of those people who go looser in summer and tighter in winter to account for these fluctuations? Who knows--but for the FIRST TIME since Donny was put in--I think I feel like what I'm supossed to feel like. And it feels pretty good!
Donny and Luka
sitting in a tree
First comes health
then comes marriage.
Oh look, there's Luka
with a baby carriage!
I know, cheesy right? But I've made no secret that one of the goals for having this done is to be able to have a healthy baby when the ELB and I get to that point!