I honestly think that I am a food addict.
Today, I went to lunch with a friend at Noodle Co. I got my order, ate about 1/2, boxed the rest. I was comfortable. THEN I ate 1/2 of a rice krispy treat they sell there. Okay, I was feeling somewhat unconfortable, but I was still okay. No pb or slime or anything--just really full. and I could kind of feel things starting to back up some.
Fast forward an hour, and I sneak a bite of my leftovers. Why? I don't know--I wasn't hungry--I just wanted it. It kind of got a little stuck--i had just a tiny little bit of slime, and then it moved down. I backed off. I didn't NEED anything more to eat.
Fast forward about 30 minutes after that, and I eat a freaking CUPCAKE.
W.T.F.
I have no idea why I do this to myself.
I didn't even WANT the cupcake--I think in my head, I just had the idea that it could possibly be the BEST CUPCAKE EVER (even though it wasn't)...and I didn't want to miss out.
It's not even head hunger--because I am not feeling any hunger. I don't know if it's just years of bad habits, if it's a mental compulsion, or what....but this can't be normal....can it? Or is this the same type of things that all of you also struggle with every day? I can't be alone in this. I hope I'm not alone in this.
I always say I don't have an addictive personality, except when it comes to food. I'm pretty positive I am a food addict. I have done exactly what you described above. Not really since surgery though, because my band is so damn tight 90% of the time. I'm not complaining about that, but I know if I COULD eat bread, it would be a downhill battle.
ReplyDeletelmao, just as I said I hadn't really lost control since surgery, I did just that. gotta laugh to avoid crying.
DeleteYou are not alone...I wouldn't say that I am a food addict but I punish myself over the same thing. I find myself mindlessly eating even when I KNOW I am not hungry. The best thing I have found for me is to get off sugar like you would quit smoking...just cold turkey...get off it and try like hell to stay off it...We are all here for you if you need us!
ReplyDeleteI have been having this same issue. I eat when I am not hungry. Just to eat. Everyone tells me there is an underlying issue. Could be stress, depression, lack of something and I am trying to make up for it. Right now I would say all of those describe how I feel. You will beat this! We both will. Lets try like hell to redirect ourselves when we feel like this! Instead of reaching for the food, lets write a letter, paint a picture, go for a walk, or call a friend! Or Blog! I will listen! :) Chin up, we will get there! One day at a time!
ReplyDeleteOh yeah. I eat past the point of comfort. I eat because every meal might be my last. I'm a food addict. If I could control what I put in my mouth I would not be going through 6 months of counseling to try and get a lap band. You are not alone sister!!!
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