After writing about my eating on Friday, Saturday turned out to be a sorta banner day for food. I made a pot of turkey chili, and every time I ate some, I did it with a ramekin and a cocktail spoon. Yes, during the course of the day, I probably had 6 of those little ramekins of chili--but usually I would have had 2 cups in a giant soup bowl (covered with shredded cheese)every time instead (which is usually three or more times)--so baby steps but it's still progress.
Yesterday, though, I did my eating thing bad again. The ELB and I stopped at Chili's on the way home from College Park. We did the 2 for $20 deal. I had three of the boneless buffalo wings (think crispy chicken nuggets), and all of the celery. I had ordered the Honey Pepper grilled chicken and shrimp. It came served on oven roasted potatoes and green beans. I ate the shrimp, and then packed up the rest to go home.
Fast forward to four hours later, and even though I still felt full and satisfied--my brain kept telling me that I needed to eat dinner because if I waited too much longer, it would be too late to eat. So I ate the grilled chicken breast, potatoes, and green beans. All of it. And it was WAY TOO MUCH food. But did I stop myself from eating all of it? No. I justified it because after I had eaten half of the chicken, I was like, well, it's stupid to save this half of a chicken breast for later--I'll just eat it now. I can't leave just two potatoes, so I'll just go ahead and finish them now. And the whole time, I was hating myself for not being able to stop the fork.
This is what I struggle with.
I am seriously wondering if hypnosis would be helpful in shutting off the part of my brain that does this to me. My Band was screaming at me to stop--but I didn't. I kept going....and going.
Has anyone else ever tried hypnosis to help control their eating issues? I see deals on Groupon and Living Social sometimes for a session for $50--and I was wondering if it's worth the money to see if it helps at all.
I just can't keep doing this to myself.