Wednesday, October 23, 2013


I'm struggling this week. Not with eating--that is actually the least of my problems. I'm struggling with alot of personal and financial issues--hence my post from yesterday.

At this point, it feels like the ONLY solution to my problems are to win the lottery.

Barring that, I can only suck it up, and keep on living and praying and hoping that something comes through. I don't have a choice. Giving up is akin to quitting. And I am NOT a quitter.

God has a plan, and I just have to trust that He is guiding me towards the path that I need to be on. And in the process, I must be getting a lesson in patience--otherwise, something would have turned the tide by now.

My mom had the most amazing faith and will of anyone I ever knew. She fought and battled Zelda (that's what she named her first tumor) for eight years, until she physically couldn't do it anymore. If she could do that, then I can't let my stupid little problems defeat me.

Sometimes, I forget that I'm not supossedf to do this on my own. That I have to trust God, and give Him my trials. I have to have faith. I have to keep going. And somehow, I will get through this, and come out on the other side stronger for it.


  1. I am sorry you are sturggling.. I will be praying for you. Here is one of my favorite vs
    Ps 34:17-18 When God's people cry out the Lord hears them. He delivers them from all their troubles. The Lord is close to the broken hearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.

  2. Yes ma'am. You are stronger than all of it.